For a long time I have listened to a different drummer, walked a rather different path. I share most of my experiences in my books, but, of course, there is often a little ‘something’ that I hold back, nothing shattering. I truly consider myself a simple man. Simple – not stupid. The western world still has a problem with the idea that simple is an expression of power and clarity. It takes simplicity to see past the complexities of life, into the pure essence of a greater reality. I learned long ago that life is not an intellectual exercise. In fact, as Nature demonstrates, life is not an intellectual expression: life is the expression of conscious intelligence. Nothing in Nature is complex; only our intellectual interpretation is complex.
So, there you have it; a simple man is able to tap into universal consciousness, while an intellectual person might say, “What is universal consciousness? I don’t understand.” The joke is – neither do I. But I am able to experience it. Pondering is rather a ponderous word, but it does rather nicely describe the state of sitting by my pond while inner-seeing the mysteries of life reflected in the water’s surface. I often do this, aware that the whole physical Nature that surrounds me – us – is just such a mirror image, a reflection of the vast metaphysical reality of Nature. We are so very physically based in our relationship with life. I include myself in this assessment, but I am probably considerably less physically based than most people. I am well aware that our physical Nature, just as with our physical body, is the least and lowest of the representations of Nature/Self. I think this is what drives me. I see a world of reality that is basically ignored. It is a far greater reality than our little, physical interpretation of life, but ignoring it does not reduce it; only we are reduced.
When I say the ‘least and lowest’ I am not, in any way, making a judgement. I am talking about energy. The physical aspect of Nature and humanity has the least and lowest frequency of all our many aspects. Our physical self is the dominant factor in our life, but it is also the aspect of self which peers through a tiny keyhole at the vastness of life. In this way we reduce the greatness of the view and, unfortunately, the greatness of the viewer. In my books and writing, I am attempting to redress this. I am attempting to show to the open-minded reader that we have an inherent greatness that we ignore. I do this by not ignoring the greatness of Nature, of life, or Self. I do this by representing a greater reality of life.
Science reveals that the eye of a housefly has around a thousand facets through which it views its surroundings. Makes them difficult to swat! However, my point is that life is like this, especially when you realise that planet Earth has considerably more facets than the eye of a fly. There are facets and realms that go ever deeper into dimensions beyond our knowledge, but not beyond our hidden, long-ignored metaphysical potential. It was not my spiritual knowledge that achieved anything on my spiritual path; it was my total commitment. I made most of the mistakes it was possible to make, except for one; I persisted. Quitting my path was never an option. I was prepared to accept failure and death at fifty years of age, but never did I consider quitting.
I truly expected that my spiritual path would entail me climbing to the top of a mountain of truths, until, when I reached the pinnacle, I would step into enlightenment. In reality, I went into the deepest pit of pain and despair, and there, beaten, I finally surrendered. I learned that spiritual enlightenment is not an acquisition; it is a surrender. When I let go of Michael, I let go of identity; identity holds hands with separation. Not that I was aware of any of this while in the process; it was just torment and intuition, and being in the moment as I fumbled my way through the ‘letting go’ process. When I let go of identity, no longer identifying with identity, I was overwhelmed by the realisation of Self, by my holistic connection with All That Is. You cannot do this as a technique, for there is no technique. You cannot learn how to do this, for there is no ‘how to.’ You cannot chase or capture or in any way contrive to become enlightened – it is all a surrender of self to Self.
Take heart, you are on ‘your’ path. All you now need is to live consciously, and to trust and Love yourself unconditionally. The very fact that you are reading this means that you are consciously growing. All is well – trust.